In the midst of this crazy day, social media is telling a lot about our human nature. There are videos of people celebrating; there are photos of people sobbing. We point fingers, we blame, we brag, and we puff up in pride.
All the while, I am sitting beside the hospital bed of my sweet Papa as he lies unaware of our country’s current state. His focus is on being comfortable and on loving on those who give him care. My Grandma holds his hand and prays for something I don’t know I could pray as a wife: for The Lord to take Him away from this earth swiftly and quietly.
That is selfless.
That is what I pray my marriage looks like one day.
You see, this world will change. This world will encounter brokenness and apparent victory. No matter what side of the ballot you chose, we can all agree that this election has demonstrated the brokenness of our world. It has shown that we lack care for those who do not hold the same opinion as we do. It demonstrates that no matter how comfortable or uncomfortable we grow in one moment, another day will come and bring brand new trials.
Whether you are rejoicing or filled with sorrow right now, whether you are focused on the election or the health state of a family member, let us rest in the fact the future is already set in stone.
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And they sing the song of Moses, the servant of God, and the song of the Lamb, saying, “Great and amazing are your deeds, O Lord God the Almighty! Just and true are your ways, O King of the nations! Who will not fear, O Lord, and glorify your name? For you alone are holy. All nations will come and worship you, for your righteous acts have been revealed.”
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So. As we sit in our fallen world today, let us be guided by the peace that no matter the political leaders of this world, Jesus will one day reign as the King of this earth. Not because of an election or the desires of any of us here on earth, but because He has been King for all of eternity. He already reigns. He has already beaten the enemy.
My family is trying to rest in that fact right now. Not because of the election, but because we are seeing the pain this world touts in a very up-close and personal way. I alluded to this in the last post, but let me reiterate the fact that my Grandmother is holding fast to Jesus as she watches her husband’s comfort crumble.
I am so grateful I have her to look to right now and God’s word to remind me how marriage should look through the changing nature of this world. As a result of these examples, I am praying the following things for my marriage.
I pray I can admit my faults.
I pray I will love him through his.
I pray he loves Jesus more than he loves me.
I pray I love Jesus more than I love him.
I pray that if The Lord grands us with children, we train them up in Jesus.
I pray the sorrows of this world do not affect our love for one another.
I pray our focus is one another before anything else on this earth.
I pray we become one another’s sweetest care takers.
I pray we do not let a changing world disrupt our steady love.
I pray I put him over myself.
I pray we laugh often.
I pray we cry over our broken world.
I pray I let him go when The Lord takes him.
I pray he does the same for me–whichever should come first.
This last prayer is so special and has to be so difficult. I am having such a hard time letting go. I constantly move toward his bedside for one more forehead kiss or one more “I love you.” While she does the same, she has prayed out loud for The Lord to take him. She sees his suffering and she has a desire that he will go be with the true King of this world. She would rather him see again than she see him again. She would rather he gain the strength to walk and dance once more than to gain more of her own time with him.
I am grateful today that I have perspective in this little hospital room. I am grateful that I am spending time with a man who will soon be spending time with my Lord. I am grateful that although marriage is new and exciting for me right now, I get to see one that is tried and true. I am grateful He has given me an beautiful picture of a marriage I hope to exemplify in the years to come. Thank you Grandma and Papa. Thank you Jesus.