As we gear up for the last lap of this pregnancy, everything makes me a little more teary-eyed. If you read my last post about what I’ve learned so far, you know that my baby-making hormones are REAL.
The sweet thing about this is that I am feeling the weight of everything a little more. Before we even started trying, I asked one of my friends how pregnancy rocked her emotionally. She said it made her more sensitive–but not in the crying at puppies kind of way.
More sensitive because she better felt the weight of things that matter.
Before I know it, my little girl will be here, staring at me and waiting for me to fulfill her every need. I may not be quite at the end yet, but if this goes like anyone says it will, I will blink, and this time of holding her inside of me will be over.
So while we prepare physically–while we cherish the moments of just the two of us, put together a nursery, and read all the parenting books–we also prepare spiritually.
Pregnancy has made my prayer life more tender and more intentional than I ever imagined. So before it is over, I want to document some of the prayers God has laid on my heart to pray for my daughter. There are many more we can and do pray, but these are the ones that come back to me in the still of the night when I can’t quite get comfortable and in the sweet hours of the morning when she rolls and kicks as if to tell me “wake up, mom”. They are the prayers that my heart is a little extra sensitive to, and they are the prayers I hope you will also pray for this little girl as you read.
We covet those prayers.
We long for her to be prayed over, and we hope you might join us in doing so.
That she would know Jesus.
“And this is eternal life, that they know you the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom you have sent.” John 17:3
All of the sudden, I am more intensely faced with the weight of the depravity of man. As John reminds us, without knowing the only true God–without knowing Jesus Christ–we are not met with eternal life. Every prayer that follows this one is based on her knowing Jesus. So that is what I pray with the greatest conviction. As her little brain forms, as neurons fire back and forth and create connections, I pray that her longing for Christ would even now begin.
That she would trust Him.
“Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!” Psalm 46:10
If I am being honest with myself, some of my greatest heartaches stem from my lack of trust in the Lord. I pray that when troubles come in her life, whether it is not getting her way as a toddler or even undergoing her greatest tragedy, that she would let her mind be still and trust He who is her God.
That she would fall in love with the Church.
“Love one another with brotherly affection. Outdo one another in showing honor. Do not be slothful in zeal, be fervent in spirit, serve the Lord. Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer. Contribute to the needs of the saints and seek to show hospitality.” Romans 12:10-13
Let me be clear. I do not crave her love for an event or a building. I crave her love for the people of God. I pray that she would love the Church well and be loved by the Church well. I pray that she will be an outdoer in honor and that her heart would fall deeply in love with the saints who will spend eternity worshiping our King.
That she would be surrounded by a great cloud of witnesses.
“Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us” Hebrews 12:1
Along the same lines, I know that while I know my heart will long for her to come to me with any and everything, it is the great cloud of witnesses–the Church– who will be her strength in the struggle of sin. I pray that she would be surrounded by people who desire to lift her up and encourage her when she is in the heat of a spiritual battle. I pray that she would link arms with other believers and run her race with endurance.
That God would create in her a pure heart.
“Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.” Psalm 51:10
Psalm 51 is a Psalm that David wrote after having an affair and murdering his mistress’s husband. It is a psalm that gives us a glimpse into his understanding of the weight of sin. And still, he trusts God to purify, or to clean, his heart. I would be absolutely naive to think that my child would go through life without ever committing a sin that shows herself her own nature. But I pray that when she falls to her flesh and recognizes the filth of the human heart, her cry would be to God and she would be sanctified and purified through the conviction of the Holy Spirit.
That she would be a witness for the Gospel.
“’You are my witnesses,’ declares the Lord, ‘and my servant whom I have chosen, that you may know and believe me and understand that I am he. Before me no god was formed, nor shall there be any after me.'” Isaiah 43:10
I pray she would recognize God as the only god and that her heart’s desire would be to share His name with everyone she meets.
That she would find her identity in Christ over any person.
“But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his own possession, that you may proclaim the excellencies of him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light.” 1 Peter 2:9
“Then I considered all that my hands had done and the toil I had expended in doing it, and behold, all was vanity and a striving after wind, and there was nothing to be gained under the sun.” Ecclesiastes 2:11
Over and over again, I find myself embedded in my desire for the approval of people. Whether it is my husband or my friends, my church family or my boss, I love to be affirmed by this world–often times even to the detriment of my obedience to Christ. So this is a prayer that I find myself convicted of each time it leaves my mouth. I pray for my daughter, and for myself, that we would have our eyes fixed on Jesus. That we would see this world and its approval as vanity. I pray that we would constantly be reminded that if we are chosen by God, “part of His royal priesthood” is the only identity that should fulfill our hearts.
That she would rely on God far more than she relies on me.
“The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, my God, my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.” Psalm 18:2
I feel very not ready to be a parent. When I think of a child looking to me as an example, I am deeply aware of my own hypocrisy in nearly every area of my life. So, of course, I pray that God would sanctify me of those things. But more importantly, I pray that neither I nor any other human would not be her standard. I pray that God would be the One she looks to and the One she relies on to fulfill her every need.
That God would place in her a longing for Him.
“He is the radiance of the glory of God and the exact imprint of his nature, and he upholds the universe by the word of his power. After making purification for sins, he sat down at the right hand of the Majesty on high.” Hebrews 1:3
I want to bookend these prayers with essentially the same thing: that she would know and long for God through Jesus.
Of course, I dream all kinds of things up for her. I see a little girl playing the piano at church and wonder if she might master an instrument one day. I look at my husband’s national championship trophies from speech and debate and dream of her stepping into his footsteps. I sing to her in the morning so that she might pick up tones of music.
But I also know that none of that matters. Skill fades and trophies collect dust. So right now, right as she is forming inside of me, my most consistent prayer is that she would see the radiance of the Glory of God through Jesus Christ. I pray that she would know the One who upholds the universe with His power. I pray that one day we would stand together at eternity’s gates, no longer defined as mother and daughter, but as sisters who will spend the rest of the fullness of time in perfect, worshipful unity with the God of the universe.
I write all of this not to boast about my prayer life for my child. Lord knows that I can and should be praying for her much more than I do.
I write this to document how she is being prayed for so that on the days I am discouraged in any of these things, I can come back. I write this that she might one day see how she was prayed for.
And I write all of this that we may be encouraged to pray for anyone who does not yet know our Jesus.
Being pregnant has opened my heart to a lot of things. God has used it to sanctify me and to teach me more about Him. But I think the thing that He has done most in these past six months is to teach me how to pray for the salvation of the lost.
Join with me.