I sat in the hospital waiting room clutching my ginger ale wondering if I was living a dream. My heart was simultaneously still and beating out of my chest.

“But God… Why her?”

I whispered, scared I might lose the first person in my life I loved with everything in me.

At twelve years old, I had very little idea what it was to lose something–to go through hardship that seemed impossible. But there we sat, learning that my Aunt had suffered a brain aneurysm. One that should have taken her life and might still. To a twelve year old, that kind of news will wreck your world. To an immature believer, it will make you question your Savior.

This was a turning point in my faith, and I would love to tell you that it turned in the right direction. Yet this day, the enemy whispered into my ears what he whispered to Eve in that first chunk of the earth’s existence. You know better than God. 

I spent years living in that lie, dwelling on its empty promise that somehow my own will would create a more fulfilling life for myself. I indulged. I indulged in my friends, in boys, in the fantasy of popularity, even in the recognition of being a “good Christian.” Yet my conversations with Jesus had grown silent, and my worship of myself was deafening.

FullSizeRender 17.jpgI said, “But God, why me?” when I should have said, “But God, You’re sufficient.”

Praise Jesus that He chased after me in my rebellion, knowing that my aunt’s aneurysm would not be the last hardship I would suffer. He pursued me, grasped to me, and began maturing me to His glory.

{Notice I said began. I am far, far from the kind of maturity He calls us to}

So now, having endured an even greater hardship this year, I can look to Him and trust that He is in control, though I often do it with reluctance.

My sisters, God has given us a perfect example of a woman who did just that plus some: Ruth.

If you don’t know the story of this amazing woman, buckle up! In such a short time she lost her entire family, with the exception of her mother-in-law. Her father-in-law died, her husband and his brother died, and her sister-in-law left. She could have chosen to leave and go back to her biological family, yet she chose to give her own life over care for her mother-in-law. And this is just the beginning.

Over the coming weeks, we will be diving into four of my favorite chapters in the Bible. Ruth is one of the only books written from the perspective of a woman, and it is rich. It is filled with constant reminders that…

  1. There will be hardships

  2. The Lord gives us strength beyond ourselves when we trust in His way

  3. He is faithful to provide

  4. That provision lasts generations.

Yes, Ruth is often known as a Biblical love story. Yet it is so much more than God’s Nicholas Sparks novel. It is a story of the perfect redemption He sent through His son, Jesus. It is a reflection of Him, written thousands of years before and through the eyes of His ancestor. It is the representation of a woman who does not rely on a human dude to bring her peace–something all of us need to recognize every once in a while–yet puts her trust in the Almighty whom she can neither hear nor see.

It is a story of two racial groups coming together, loving one another and living to the Glory of the God that bound them.

It is a story of the Church, who is to blindly follow in the direction we are called by God whether or not we know the end of the story.

It is a story of kindness we are to bestow upon one another.

It is a story of a promise God made to Abraham being fulfilled through someone who is outside of the covenant.

It is a story that reflects the way we are to look upon the days when it seems like God did us wrong. You see, this beautiful story begins in turmoil. And Yahweh–only Yahweh–turns it around. He uses the people He provided, but He is the ultimate hero.

My sweet friend, if you are going through a time of trial, join me. If you are going through a time of harvest, join me. If you are so mad at God that you can’t see straight, join me. If today is not hard, tomorrow will be. We are not promised ease and fullsizerender-18comfort, but adversity.

But God!

But God is sufficient!

But God is real!

But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ—by grace you have been saved—and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, so that in the coming ages he might show the immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. (Ephesians 2:4-7 ESV)

As we dig into my favorite Bible story, vow to do this with me: stop asking, “But God” and start proclaiming, “But God.”

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Originally posted 2017-01-23 23:43:53.

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