“Did you know you were going to marry Austin when you met?” so many have asked since I became engaged. 

We always hear about that moment. That spark when you think, “This is the one. This is the person I will spend the rest of my life with. This could be my forever.”

Today we are going to hear from one of my sweetest friends on what happens when that promised thought comes out void. When the vow we think the Lord is giving us turns out to be only our own hopes. When God brings us back to the road of singleness we assumed we would never again have to walk down. There aren’t many roads that both sting and strengthen our hearts like this one. If you, my friend, have experienced this kind of pain, take heart. Take heart that there is hope beyond these days. Take heart that our Jesus is bigger and better than even the sweetest of people whom we wish to always love. Take hart that He is holding you, He has the power to crush the insecurities this season has brought. 

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It’s never easy when a relationship comes to an end, but when you can see yourself spending the rest of your life with that person, it is a whole new story.

The ending of my last relationship was really difficult for me because for the first time in my life I thought, “I can see myself marrying this person,” and it brought along a lot:




Days, tears, and conversations with trusted friends went by. I had to make a conscious decision to turn it over to God. To find my hope in Him.

I knew that God was the only one who could give me a peace that surpasses all understanding.

So every morning I humbled myself before Him.

I fell down on my knees.

I prayed honestly and earnestly about whatever was on my heart.

I talked to God about the heartache and confusion that I was experiencing and asked Him to help me fight the lies that I knew the devil would feed me throughout the day.  I prayed throughout the day as different thoughts and temptations came my way.  I chose to take my thoughts captive to Christ by putting off the insecure and fearful thoughts and instead focusing on things that were pleasing to God.  I found and memorized Bible verses that so I could keep my heart and mind focused on God during the day.

I was by no means perfect when it came to choosing Christ. 

There were days when I failed miserably and reverted to having a pity party for myself. However, as I chose to put God first more regularly, FullSizeRender.jpgI began to experience the spiritual and emotional healing that comes only through Him.
That I needed so desperately.

I can now look back and see that God clearly had a plan and a reason why that relationship needed to end.  I am so thankful that God walked with me through that season and that I now have the ability to look back on this time in my life as one of the many times in which God proved Himself to be faithful.  He is so faithful.  He has always been faithful and He always will be.

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Originally posted 2017-01-28 17:22:01.

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